I’ve not posted in what feels like an eternity as things have changed (for me, for my family and for everyone) – stating the obvious…
I’m fortunate to work in local government as I get to hear about and see the amazing work of colleagues in supporting people during this Pandemic, more than what is shared in the news.
I’m grateful everyday to everyone who is working so tirelessly to continue to provide help and support to those that need it.
I’m grateful that I’m safe at home with my family and I’ve learnt so much about our resilience and love for one another that has deepened our family unit and our connection in ways I’m not sure would have happened without this experience.
I’m grateful for the daily check-ins and check-outs that the team have through the use of technology as this allows a level of connection to be maintained during this period of lockdown and home working.
I’m grateful for the reliability of the technology to connect with colleagues to do the work we need to do and to stay informed and up top date with communications.
I’m grateful for access to a laptop and the internet and a comfy chair to allow homeworking to be the new normal for me right now…
I’m grateful for all the opportunities to connect through technology to people anywhere
But I’m feeling lonely
I miss connection, importantly physical connection to people who are important to me
I’ve realised that my sense and feelings of loneliness have developed and increased even though on one level my contact with people has increased, although all of that is through the technology.
I’m missing the physical connection to the team and my friends.
i’m missing the shared physical experiences of laughter and the energy you can create when people come together in the same space…there is something so important about the physical space we create together.
I’m missing the simple pleasure and feelings of joy one gets when you are in the physical company of people you respect, admire and love.
I’m not sure when this will end, but I know that I will never again take for granted the simple moments I share with people and the time we have together…
I look forward to reconnecting on so many levels.
For now though i’m living with feelings i’m not used to and allowing them to teach me valuable lessons.